Vanished – Susan – Buffalo, September 10, 2001
My kitchen was a mess; the drop cloths tripping me as I rushed to answer the phone.
It was Donna, sobbing. “Susan, they convicted me.”
“Oh, Donna, I’m so sorry,” I said, a twist of rage and misery growing in my chest.
“It’s over. No church will hire me now. I’m finished as a minister. Finished.”
I slumped down on a chair, clutching the phone to my ear. “You were so brave, so good. How could they?” We cried, harmonizing our pain, me in my kitchen and my best friend in her apartment three hundred miles away.
“I should have been there to support you,” I said, looking at the half-painted green wall. I put my brush down on the edge of the can. “I’m so sorry.”
For over thirty years, we had shared secrets while playing a steady stream of concerts with Ed and Paul in Friendship. Last week I had visited, helping her prepare for the clerical trial when a jury of her fellow ministers would decide her fate. But when the trial was delayed, I returned home, pressured by my husband to help him prepare for the family reunion.
Her sobs slowed to sniffles.
“The way I see it,” I said, “you’re only guilty of following the Golden Rule instead of church rules. I’m proud of you.”
“I don’t know what to do,” Donna said, just above a whisper.
“Is there any hope?” I asked.
“You wouldn’t be thinking about hope if you were in my shoes today,” she replied with a bitter laugh.
“Oh, Donna, I can’t imagine how awful that must have been… I really can’t,” I said. “But your courage has been so widely publicized; I think they’ll vote to change the rules next year.”
“My courage or my stupidity?” she said. “Look at the lives I’ve ruined. The people I loved the most! And so much hate mail, I stopped reading it.”
She paused. “No more fighting. I’m done.”
The storm had surfaced last May. Her good intentions were drowned by a sex scandal that had splashed her picture across the evening news and the Internet. Friends turned away.
“Donna, who wouldn’t be exhausted by what you’re going through?” I said, putting the lid on the paint can. “Can you come to Buffalo and stay with us for a while? A few days, a few months, whatever you need to recover and decide what’s next.”
“Thank you. I was hoping you’d offer. I checked Amtrak, and I can get the 7:46 train out of Yonkers in the morning and get to Buffalo by three.”
The next morning, I was shocked, then sickened as I watched the horror of the Twin Towers tumbling on television, smoke streaming through the brilliant blue sky.
Donna’s train had left Yonkers an hour before the first plane flew into the North Tower. I was sure she was safe, traveling away from New York, going north up the Hudson River. She had no reason to be in Manhattan, thirty miles south of where the other ministers had voted to defrock her.
But she never got off the train when it pulled into the Buffalo station at 3:01 PM.
Donna, a 55-year-old ex-minister, had vanished
The Museum – Susan – The World Trade Center, New York City, September 9th, 2016
Fifteen years later, Friendship, our folk music group, was invited to perform in a concert to observe the anniversary of the terror attack. Donna’s granddaughter, Alice, would be singing with Ed, Paul and me.
When Alice came to our first rehearsal, I rubbed my eyes and looked again. At 27, she looked exactly like her grandmother did when I first met Donna in 1968. It was on spring break in the Bahamas. Donna had been sitting in the back of a jeep waiting for a tour to begin, her blond ponytail bouncing as she laughed with the guide. I was running from the worst mistake of my life, hoping my sunglasses would hide my tears.
Alice’s hair, a textured bob, was shorter than Donna’s. But otherwise, they were identical. I took a deep breath and welcomed her with a hug.
She was a skilled guitarist who had been listening to Friendship records since she was a little girl, so she easily covered Donna’s parts. Toward the end of the evening, as we rehearsed “Light One Candle,” Alice lifted her chin and smiled at me as she held a high note, just like Donna always did. Her brown eyes sparkled under her blonde bangs, her joy contagious. For a moment, I was a young woman again, sharing a microphone with my best friend, our guitars pulsing together, singing with all our hearts to awaken more love in the world …and our lives.
As Ed poured some wine after the rehearsal, Alice said, “I adored grandma. But I was only twelve when she disappeared, and I never understood why. Was she at the World Trade Center? What happened that day?”
I had little to tell her. In the weeks after the terror attack, I took multiple trips to Yonkers and Manhattan, looking for her. Nearly 3000 had vanished on September 11th. Even now, more than a thousand were still missing with no trace of their remains.
As we talked, I had trouble remembering much about that day other than a few vividly horrifying images. So the week before the concert, I asked Ed to come with me to visit the September 11th Memorial Museum at the World Trade Center in New York.
My hand was slippery with sweat on the museum’s handrail as Ed and I stepped onto the escalator, sliding down beside two girders, battered remnants of the Twin Towers. I leaned on my cane, steadying myself against the movement and the memories as we sank through the Manhattan bedrock to the Memorial Museum, seven stories below where the Towers once soared.
The second escalator descended to the vast cavern of Memorial Hall. A quote from Virgil: No day shall erase you from the memory of time, blazed from an enormous wall with a thousand different shades of blue, recalling the beautiful sky that hung over that awful day.
“No day shall ever erase you,” I murmured as we sank lower.
“How could we ever forget her?” Ed said. He towered over me, still lean and handsome despite wrinkles under a messy shock of silver hair. “Even now, I ache. But I still wonder if it was suicide,” poking at the hole in my heart for the thousandth time.
I’d have slapped him if I hadn’t heard it so many times before. Ed’s strong point was honesty, but I always wished it was sensitivity. If Donna had killed herself, wasn’t it my fault for not being at the trial to support her?
“I mean, Susan,” Ed continued, “think about how she loved being a minister.” His brow wrinkled. “How awful to have that ripped away. Plus, there was all the media coverage, the friends who turned on her. If it were me, I’d have at least thought about jumping off a bridge.”
The guilt started to drain me, but I forced myself to choose something else. “How about when we’re done,” I suggested, “we go someplace nice for lunch and make a toast to all the good times we had?”
Ed smiled. “Then we were four young folk singers who wanted to change the world. Now we’re just two old fogies, and the world ignores us.”
“Pardon me?” I said, “I’m certainly not ready to be ignored, and I know you’re not either. Unless you’ve decided to cancel the publication of your book next month.”
“Well, even if it doesn’t sell, writing is a cheap hobby that keeps me out of trouble,” he smiled.
“I don’t know, Ed. What about the chapter where you question our priorities by saying terrorism has caused nearly 4000 American deaths over the past 12 years, compared to 33,000 deaths from opioid addiction just last year? As a retired history professor, I know you still keep track of all that stuff, but don’t you think it’s going to get you into trouble?”
“I think all of us are already in trouble because people make decisions based on their fears rather than the facts,” Ed said, quoting from his preface. “And our national policies place profits over people.”
He took my elbow to steady me as the escalator reached the bottom. A jolt shot down my leg as I stepped off, but my physical therapist says I’m doing well for a 69-year-old lady with a recent hip replacement.
For the next 20 minutes, we barely spoke as we relived the nightmare, the twisted steel, the videos and the crushed fire truck, a relic of the 343 firefighters who died.
“And, here, ladies and gentlemen, is what has come to be called the ‘9/11 Bible,’” the tour guide said. “It was found fused to a steel girder when the rubble of the Twin Towers was being removed.
“What is most remarkable,” he continued, “is that a page from the New Testament is clearly legible. You can see Jesus’s words printed in red: ‘…if anyone strikes you on the right cheek, turn the other cheek.’ …His message of forgiveness.”
As soon as I saw it, I knew. A bubble of grief started in my stomach, grew in my chest, and exploded as tears.
“It’s Donna’s,” I sobbed, barely above a whisper.
Ed faced me, his eyes widening as he touched my shoulder. “What?” he asked.
My chin trembled. I grabbed his arm to steady myself as another bubble of pain rose and burst. “It’s Donna’s.” I pointed. “It’s her Bible!”
Ed turned to the display. “Oh, my God,” he murmured. “Is it possible?” His chest heaved, and his eyes glistened.
I looked at the charred margins of the book and the words embedded in the molten metal. “Ed, do you remember? We gave her a New Testament with Christ’s words written in red on the day she was ordained. And ‘turn the other cheek’ was one of her favorite sayings.”
“God knows there were always plenty of people for her to forgive,” he said, frowning.
He put his arm around me, and we both stared at it.
“It looks like the one she read,” Ed said. He bent to get a closer look.
“Yes,” I said. “We gave her just the New Testament so it wouldn’t be bulky.”
He bent over, his nose just inches from the glass case as he stared at it. “And we ordered a custom purse with a special compartment so she could take it anywhere. But, Susan, there must be tens of thousands of this exact same Bible. What are the odds that this one is hers?” He paused, straightening up. “And how did it get here?”
In my heart, I knew it was hers. But the message… ‘Turn the other cheek’? Forgive the terrorists who had killed so many… killed Donna that day? It made me sick.
The Memorial Concert Susan – Grand Island, NY, September 12th, 2016
Four days later, my hip hurt and my heart ached as I closed my guitar case, taking care to avoid the microphone and speaker wires that snaked through the grass around my feet. The concert was over, and we were gathering our things from backstage at the edge of a meadow just before it sloped down to the Niagara River. The afternoon sun had pierced the clouds, spotlighting a blaze of early autumn over on the Canadian shore.
Every September since the 80s, the Lodge, an eclectic spiritual community of peace activists and recovering hippies on Grand Island, had sponsored an outdoor concert on the Niagara River. Donna, Ed, Paul and me – known collectively as Friendship – had headlined more than a dozen of them. This afternoon’s concert had been billed as “The 15th Commemoration of the 9/11 Attacks.” The day Donna disappeared. The day fear became an epidemic.
A low drone in the distance had grown into the intrusive growl of twin outboard motors, powering the white and green U.S. Border Patrol boat heading upriver from Niagara Falls to Buffalo. It turned slightly, heading towards a raft of about a hundred canvasbacks ducks drifting slowly toward the Falls, five miles downstream. They were the first contingent of over a hundred thousand birds that wintered here each year, drawn by the current that kept the river from freezing.
The boat sped towards them, forcing them to flap furiously and take off. Swarming awkwardly towards the clouds that hung over the border, they looked ugly, like the flying monkeys that protected the Wicked Witch in Oz.
At our final rehearsal two days ago, I started to tell Allice about the Bible we found and its message of forgiveness. But, before I could begin, nausea filled my belly. I excused myself and fled to the bathroom. How could I tell her what I didn’t understand?
And then, last night I had a dream. It was vivid, like actually watching September 11th unfold through Donna’s eyes. The early train she took to Manhattan, the meeting, and the horror. The sounds and the smells. The pain. Then the unexpected love and the indescribable beauty.
It was too awful and too fantastic. Was it just a side effect from a glass of wine and the Tylenol PM I took to help me sleep?
Alice, still flushed from the ovation we had just received, came over and stood next to me at the table. As she slid her setlist under the strings of her guitar, she said, “Susan, it was such an honor to sing with the three of you and do my grandma’s parts. Thank you for including me!”
I felt myself sway and held onto the table for support. “Alice, you were great,” I said, pausing to take a deep breath. “But some of it was very disorienting for me. It was like time-traveling. You looked and sounded so much like your grandma, that it was like being on stage with her forty years ago.”
I reached out and we hugged, both of us with tears in our eyes. I said, “Thank you for the chance to feel young again, and remember – no, feel – what those songs meant to us.”
“I wish I knew more about Grandma,” Alice said, holding my hand in both of hers. “I understand that nobody knows why she disappeared. But could you write something about how you met and the music you played? Or, really anything about the friendship you shared?”
I turned to stare at the river. In the old days, after all the concert equipment was packed in our vans, we’d take a couple of boats across the Niagara up to the Black Creek Tavern and enjoy some Canadian beer on their patio. We’d laugh about our mistakes, like me playing ‘air guitar’ when I forgot the chords. But with four vocals, three guitars and an electric piano to distract them, we knew the audience almost never noticed. After another round or two, we’d take a slow cruise back to our vans, drifting with the ducks, savoring the sunset and each other.
If we did that today, we would be stopped, and our boats might be confiscated for crossing the border without permission.
But now, staring at the river, I couldn’t respond. It was too much. Today’s music had ripped the scab off my grief and stirred up my guilt. I shook my head, no.
“Are you sure?” she asked, smiling. “Even if it was just a bit of your story, I would really treasure it. I wish I could stay so you could tell me. But our ad agency just put me in charge of producing a new campaign ad for the battleground states, so I have to fly home this evening.”
I hesitated. How could anyone shrink thirty-three years of hope and heartbreak into a few pages?
“My mother said you found a lot of Grandma’s old journals when you were cleaning out her apartment. I know you were best friends, but maybe some of them could help you remember what she was thinking?” Alice’s eyes twinkled with hope as she tilted her head and lifted her eyebrows, waiting for my answer.
I remembered Donna giving me that look when she was nudging me to be a little braver than I really am.
So I’m going to try…
FOR ALICE: MAY YOU CREATE A BETTER WORLD THAN WE DID
Your grandmother appeared in my life hours before Martin Luther King was murdered. She disappeared when the Twin Towers were destroyed, the day after she was expelled from her ministry. How odd that hate marked the beginning and end of our relationship.
Fifteen years after she vanished, we found Donna’s plea for forgiveness fused to molten metal in a display case at the September 11th Memorial Museum.
But can I ever forgive myself?
I wish we had warned the officials about the hateful letters from Malik in Al-Qaeda …or that we really understood what the Bahamian woman meant when she said:
Religion is a dangerous medicine.
Too little can harm. Too much can kill.
But I never imagined that religion would kill Donna’s career because she chose the Golden Rule instead of church rules. Or that the name of God would be on the lips of the fanatics who flew two planes into the World Trade Center.
As I watched the Twin Towers tumble on TV that day, I thought she was on a train, on her way to Buffalo to see me.
I never realized our friendship was over.
I thought she was safe.
Perfectly Safe – Susan: Nassau, The Bahamas, April 3, 1968
“Don’t worry, Susan, it’s perfectly safe!” Anne yelled to be heard over the steel drums and the noise from the bar we had just left. “We just say ‘no thanks’ to any car with two or more guys.”
Her blonde hair flowed around her face as she half twirled to embrace the street party. “We’re in Nassau, girl. Time to let loose and live!”
The souvenir shops had been shuttered for hours, but the action on the sidewalks had been growing since dark.
“No, Anne,” I insisted, “It’s too dangerous to hitchhike.” ‘No’ was never easy for me to say, but being with Anne was giving me plenty of practice.
Two celebrations were merging in the streets and in the bars. Hordes of college kids on spring break mingled with the local Negroes, many who were leaving a political rally near the Straw Market. The locals greeted each other with shouts of “Hey, man, PLP all the way!” their slogan for the success of the Progressive Liberal Party in next week’s Bahamian election.
The bars were so jammed that the dancing had spilled onto the street. Swarms of college kids laughed as they stumbled over cobblestones, their happiness fueled by freedom, beer, and the bottles of the local rum they carried in brown paper bags.
“There are dozens of lonely guys who would love to give us a ride,” Anne said. “If either of us is uncomfortable with whoever stops, we won’t get into the car. OK?”
“Or, if you want to walk,” she offered, “I’ll meet you back at the hotel.”
I sighed. “OK. Let’s stick together.”
Anne tucked her tee-shirt tighter into her pants, emphasizing a chest that was already hard to ignore. Then she stepped into traffic and stuck out her thumb.
You’re such a show-off!” I said, loosening my ponytail. I knew that my green eyes were more striking when my dark hair framed my face and curled over my breasts. When we were out drinking with our housemates, I usually attracted the most guys, but Anne was always the girl who took one home.
Earlier in the evening, the second bar we visited had a grove of coconut trees behind it. The trunks were wrapped with little lights that went up into branches, casting a soft glow under the palms and on the tables and chairs below. The local band was doing a decent cover of the Beach Boys’ Good Vibrations, a perfect song for a pretty setting. But the flutter in my stomach wouldn’t go away.
Anne led the way to the bar. She was the last person I would have chosen as my roommate on Spring Break. But one by one, each of our housemates had backed out of the trip I organized, leaving just the two of us. Lately, it seemed they all did things without inviting me.
At least David was loyal. But after two years with the same boyfriend, I was getting tired of the same old routine, even if he was a quarterback on the University of Buffalo’s football team.
So, I had planned this as a girls-only last blast before we graduated. A lot of seniors I knew were getting engaged. Did I really want to settle down with Dave? I needed to feel free before I could decide.
Anne ordered a beer and I ordered a Pina Colada at the tiki bar. Next to us was a small clearing choked with dancers
“Anne, do you think I’m overdressed?” I shouted over the music, looking down at my sleeveless blue silk blouse and my linen shorts. Most of the girls, including Anne, were dressed in sloppy t-shirts and cut-off jeans.
“Your majesty,” she said with a huge grin, “I always think you’re overdressed. But the tramps of the world have lower standards than campus royalty.”
The girls at our house were always teasing me about being elected Homecoming Queen.
“Oh, Anne, you’re certainly not a tramp,” I said, although she was.
“Are you sure?” She raised her eyebrows and then her glass in a toast. “Party on, your highness.” Then, she turned to dance alone into the middle of the crowd, grinning at everyone and waving her drink in time with the music.
I swiveled on the barstool, turning my back to the dancers, my mind wandering back to when I was first stung by that word.
“Susan, you’re acting like a tramp!” It was my father’s voice from years ago, turning a horrible night into something worse. “You’re only 16, and this is the second time you’ve gotten home after one in the morning. You know you’re supposed to be home by midnight. What will the neighbors think? What have you been doing all this time?”
What I’d been doing was fighting off Richie Evans in the back seat of his father’s car. I loved him, and not just because he was a basketball star and the senior class president who chose me, a sophomore. I loved him because he always was sweet and kind to me.
We’d been going steady for almost two months and had been necking a couple of times at College Point after the movies. My big mistake was going into the back seat with him.
Before, when I said “no,” he always listened, but this time he wouldn’t. I started to panic and tried to push him away when he started to pull at my panties. “Stop, please stop!”
“I love you, Susan,” he said, nuzzling my neck and hurting my breasts as I squirmed under him. For weeks, I’d imagined making love with him on our wedding night, but not like this. Not like this!
“No, Richie, no!” I struggled to get him off me, but he was too heavy, too strong.
There was a stab of pain between my legs as he entered. It got worse as he moved inside me, but ten seconds later, he pushed really hard and stopped with a satisfied groan.
I held him, crying against his chest. “I love you, Richie,” I said, “I love you.” But he just laid there, quiet. His fingers moved slowly through my hair.
Finally, he looked at me and kissed me, his lips brushing my wet cheeks. “You are so beautiful.”
His thing was still inside me. Did he still love me? Had he ever? I couldn’t wait for him to get off me, take me home, and leave me alone. I cried harder.
A half-hour later, I quietly opened the front door, as Richie sped away. My parents were standing there, waiting to call me names.
“Nobody is going to respect you if you keep acting like a tramp,” my father said, pulling the belt on his blue bathrobe over his big belly, pacing back and forth across the living room.
“Your father is right, dear,” my mother said as I sat looking at the living room rug. “You don’t want to do anything to ruin your reputation.”
Was my skirt stained? My father was angry, and she was on his side. I was sore and messy from the worst experience of my life, but I couldn’t tell her about it. She didn’t want to know.
Before that night, my father and I used to watch ‘our’ show, Bonanza, every Sunday night. The TV room was in the basement of our little Cape Cod, out in the middle of nowhere. The room had one brown plaid couch and two cheap easy chairs, just enough for a salesman, his wife and their only child. Our first color television stood on a metal stand in the corner. I always made popcorn or some other snack before the show. My mother usually stayed upstairs, too busy to be with us.
The stories about the fights and feuds of a handsome older man and his three grown sons in Colorado during the 1800s didn’t appeal much to me unless it was an episode where Little Joe had a girlfriend. But I loved sharing the couch with my father, snuggling, my head on his shoulder.
When I started to grow breasts, my father started to grow away, sitting in one of the easy chairs instead of cuddling on the couch. But after the night he called me a tramp, he stopped coming downstairs. I watched Bonanza alone for a couple of weeks, then stayed in my room on Sunday nights. I heard my parents fighting more often, and sometimes it was about me. So, I built a wall that was just big enough to protect me, but not so tall that they couldn’t see how perfect I was becoming. My room and my outfits looked like pictures from magazines. I smiled and agreed with them until it was almost a habit, or until the mean in me came bursting out.
About a month after Richie attacked me, I came downstairs from my bedroom to show my mother a magazine picture that showed how I thought we should decorate for my Sweet Sixteen party. Mom was on the phone saying, “Well, in one more year she’ll be going away to college. To tell you the truth, she’s such a handful, neither Joe nor I can wait.”
I slept there for another year, but that was when I began living alone.
Actually, when Anne and the girls teased me about being the Homecoming Queen, they were playing to my strength, because being elected was the single greatest accomplishment of my life. It was my favorite memory to soothe me when I was stressed. And it proved my parents were wrong. Being chosen isn’t just about looks. It’s about being both a brain and a beauty. I had to fill out a four-page application form, like applying to college all over again. Plus…
“Hi, would you like to dance?” someone shouted in my left ear, interrupting my memories.
I flinched, turned on the barstool, and saw a tall, dark-haired guy standing close, smiling at me.
“Dance?” I yelled back, “Do you like this song?” buying time while I scanned the crowd for Anne.
“One of my favorites.”
“Me, too, but honestly, my feet hurt. I like how these sandals look,” I said, sticking out my feet to show him, “but now they’re giving me blisters.”
“They’re very nice.” He moved closer so he could talk in my ear without shouting. If it weren’t for his crooked nose, he would have been very handsome. “Can I buy you a drink?”
“No, thanks. I just started this one, but we can talk. I’m waiting for my girlfriend to exhaust herself on the dance floor. Where do you go to school?”
“I go to Ohio State. I’m a phys ed major on a baseball scholarship…” And then he started a monologue: How he was recruited, his batting average, why playing shortstop is better than playing second base and way too much more.
Did he think I was interviewing him for an athletic award instead of a date? We wouldn’t be flying home for three more days, and I didn’t want to spend every waking moment with Anne. I’d be happy to find a guy to go to the beach with.
Why is it that most guys think that the conversation should be about them and whatever stupid sport they play? At least Dave listens, although his attention sometimes wanders, and he doesn’t ask good follow-up questions when I’m explaining something.
I let Mr. Baseball buy me another Pina Colada, figuring I had earned it. Finally, I saw Anne dancing in my direction, now with a reddish colored drink in her hand.
“I’m ready to go, are you?” I asked her.
“Sure,” she said, as I waved goodbye to Mr. Sports Talker.
We exited onto Bay Street which was still buzzing. “How about if we walk back towards our hotel,” I suggested, “and stop at the first place where we don’t have to yell to be heard?”
“Okay,” she said.
As we were crossing one of the bigger streets, I saw a man on the corner passing out flyers. He was old, maybe in his forties, but very fit with ruddy skin and a great head of sandy hair.
I took a flyer to be polite, glancing at the big, bold letters that said: “FREE: See the Real Bahamas.” But the graphic at the bottom of the page caught my eye, and I stopped to examine it under the next streetlight.
The drawing featured a clenched fist, like the black power symbol that made me a little nervous at some of the anti-war demonstrations. But this fist was inside the well-known symbol for Venus or the feminine: a circle with a cross dangling below it. It was drawn so that its wrist and the forearm became the upright part of the cross.
I was offended, and then intrigued.
I walked back to the corner where he stood under a streetlight and asked, “So, what are the real Bahamas?”
The warmth in his eyes matched his smile as he turned towards me.
“The real Bahamas are the 97 percent of the Islands that the tourists never see. The real people and the real culture. I’m John Bennet, a missionary who helps native Bahamians find a better life.” He extended a warm and calloused hand. “And you are?”
“I’m Susan,” I said as we shook hands “I’m on Spring Break here for another couple of days.”
“My wife and I are offering a free tour tomorrow to anyone who is interested,” John said. “We can pick you up at noon, show you our mission school, see a couple of the sights, and get you back to your hotel by sunset. Interested?”
Anne was about thirty feet down the block in front of an establishment where students were clustered on the sidewalk. She waved for me to join her, then pointed at the doorway of what apparently would be our next stop. I smiled and raised my hand to signal “just one minute” before I turned back to the missionary.
“Well, I’m studying to be a teacher,” I responded, “so it would be interesting to see a Bahamian school. But this graphic on your flyer,” I said, pointing to the bottom. “Isn’t it a little, um, outrageous?”
I was amazed to hear myself being so rude. How strong were those Pina Coladas?
“Perhaps outrageous times call for outrageous measures,” he responded with a slow grin, “but my wife can explain it better than I. She’s our illustrator, and she’d be interested in your perspective.”
“Well, thank you,” I said, folding the flyer and putting it in my pocket as I started to walk away. “I’ll check with my girlfriend and let you know.”
Now, after an hour of watching Anne dance with an assortment of guys in the Conch Café, we were standing out in the street, Anne with her thumb out, smiling at each pair of headlights that approached us.
“I can’t wait to get back to the hotel,” I said, standing next to her. “My feet hurt, but maybe we should find a taxi instead of hitchhiking?”
She ignored me. On the sidewalk, one boy vomited at the base of a palm tree while his friends jeered. The tree and about half the storefronts in town were plastered with political posters proclaiming, “PLP All the Way!”
“I still don’t get why everyone is so excited about an election,” Anne said, glancing at a nearby PLP poster. “I mean, isn’t this a British colony, and the Queen is in charge?”
Politics wasn’t Anne’s thing. She was a sociology major who was writing her senior thesis on “Gossip as a Form of Truth-Telling within Groups.”
“Well, the Queen is really a figurehead,” I replied. “One of the tour guides told me that although the Bahamas is only 10% white, next week’s election is the first time that the Negro candidates in the Progressive Liberal Party may win a majority in both the Bahamian House and Senate. So maybe it feels to them like Emancipation Day is coming.”
A small white car pulled over. As Anne bent to look inside, a melodic baritone asked, “What is your destination, miss?”
“The Ocean View Hotel,” Anne said, turning to me with a big smile
“It is on my way home. I would be most happy to drop you off,” said the deep voice, resonating with a lyrical West Indies accent.
Anne crawled into the rear seat. As I squeezed in after her, I noted an appealing smell of jasmine and musk, tinged with a sweet hint of whiskey. And then. in the light filtering in from the street, I saw he was beautiful. Like if Harry Balafonte had an even better-looking older brother. His smile gleamed, and his skin was as dark as the space between the stars.